just a glimpse

A great thank you

2009-04-10T22:21:00.003-07:00

Dear huiee, thank you for reviving my heart to life once again. I am truely grateful and thankful that you came into my life.

Thanks

speechless

2009-03-17T18:54:00.000-07:00

They always say, dont expect so much and in return get a fuck load of dissapointment. I saw wat i did not want to see today, AT 9.50AM !! totally outrageous, im upset and pissed off. I am seriously speechless. am i just dumb -.-

scram!!

2009-03-10T04:03:00.000-07:00

I want that bunch of you to get lost, out of my sight NOW

restless

2009-03-04T01:23:00.000-08:00

I have been feeling very restless today, I am not sure what the main reason is. But i believe its just that i woke up on the wrong side of the bed. My dearie is sick, seeing her sick makes me upset, nt being able to help her much.

You know the feeling where you want to help but cant do anything. Yup! that is how i am feeling now.

I think I am stupid because Im always searching for things to think. It is pure stupidity of me to do so, I will not do it again. I have to be wiser, when will I adapt.

I wont be seeing my baby till monday, memories gush through my mind, I feel happy,nostalgic and silly. Im blogging now because I feel like crying, I dont know why. Somebody should reduce the usage of my tear 'vents'.

*I was born to take care of you*

wandering to an unknown land

2009-02-26T05:35:00.000-08:00

Life's deepest secrets are hidden in the simplest answers encoded many years back. The journey you are about to read is filled with mysteries and unexplainable theories.

500 Ad, march 20th, I walked to my partner's house. In search of a simple fare to satisfy our hunger, we found M_ _ _. Tender meat and delicious feast of grass was simply awesome. We walked aimlessly down the hot parched earth with eyes watching our every move. I was enclosed in a (Is Land) named _______(.)

We came to a place named Sentosa, it has been eons since i saw such a creative name. Born since the beggining of time, immortality blessed me. We went to the deep sea in search of marine creatures to expand our feast. We saw a view curious looking ones, you can see them at the bottom.

(A mystical wave of living organisms)

(Would that be the blob's descendant?)

(Mastery of camouflage)

Reborn

2009-02-21T05:48:00.000-08:00

Hi people, I certainly believe everyone misses my blog and will be too shy to even tag after reading this post. Im perfectly fine with that, just read and stay happy by seeing the suave guy and pretty girl photos in the latest post. Jealousy cant be helped, so just tame it a bit and make it silent jealousy . Now its time for the photos!!!

(My sealy!! Choppy =D)

(I look dazzled by the bright lights)

( Fine!! Just one for you, im back to studying after this.)

i am tired

2008-11-26T07:47:00.000-08:00

this is like the blog post after sibei long, its not that i dont wanna post. But im really tired. I need to stay in the mountain and meditate and get my zen badly.

HAPPY!!

2008-11-16T09:17:00.001-08:00

hey all, i am currently very happy. Becauseee my GF gave me a a really cute surprise and present for my birthday. Ill upload the pictures tomorrow. STAY TUNED!!

we move together onwards

2008-11-14T10:58:00.000-08:00

With true love and faith, the past is no longer important my dear. It is the life we are leading now and the future that is important. There is no point turning time back even if we could, its all fated, fate brought us together, and lets not dissapoint fate forever.

*the past is over, im over it too*

key to my heart

2008-11-11T19:21:00.000-08:00

I am going to trust and put complete 101% of faith in you my dear. You will have the key to change my heart, the way it feels, the way it acts and the way it lives. You shall be the one and only in my heart, there will not be room for anyone else. Only you =)

*muacks*

I am back!! hoho

2008-11-09T07:55:00.000-08:00

I shall dedicate the post below to my wife. <3 HUIEE <3

The feeling of being with you is indescribable. I'll state some feelings when im with you.

1. I feel loved
2. I feel very very happy
3. Being with you removes all my fatigue
4. Looking into your eyes can brighten up my day
5. Giving you a big hug gives me comfort to live on each day
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6. You're the loveliest girl on this entire planet.

*muacks*

ELMO!!

2008-11-02T07:29:00.000-08:00

I AM SO HAPPY!! MY DARLING HUIEE BOUGHT ME THIS REALLY CUTE ELMO HAHA

SHOCKED ELMOO!!!

ROARRRY

meant to be since the sands of time

2008-10-28T09:24:00.000-07:00

I can finally be with you after various obstacles and wateva nonsensensical living organism that came in the way. I LOVEEE YOU!!!

better giving up then being an idiot

2008-10-27T09:37:00.000-07:00

trying is not wrong, trying too hard but not making the mark is totally stupid.

Listen to the wind and litter around you, take your leave, destroy your heart and remain silent as no one wants to hear anything from you.

*your a total outcast*

arising energy

2008-10-25T02:38:00.000-07:00

the prettiest girl looking into the pretty eyes

leave and shut up

2008-10-23T09:53:00.000-07:00

If u have no buisness to care, then fuck off. Dont make ppl stressed up over nothing. fucking idiots.

HAPPY, VERY HAPPY , SUPER HAPPY

2008-10-22T06:41:00.001-07:00

I AM SUPER HAPPY NOW BECAUSE OF HUIEEE, SHE TOTALLY MADE MY DAY A HAPPY ONE :D

*the day is soon*

CUTE and ADORABLE!!

2008-10-19T10:10:00.001-07:00

I am back, and this time. Im here to post one of huiee's picture, when she was young la. SHE LOOKS SO CUTEEEE, ITS LIKE I WANNA PINCH HER CHEEKS. HAHA. There you go, cutey pau picture.

*always cute*

contradicting

2008-10-19T01:53:00.000-07:00

You were the one who induced warmth into my heart, you feel love. But you are also the one who took away the heartbeat and feelings from my heart.

thoughts

2008-10-16T08:21:00.000-07:00

I closed my eyes and thought of the future.

Everything felt like it was pure bliss and happiness, we were beside each other, doing nothing, just enjoying the company of each other. I looked into your eyes, those beautiful eyes im seeing now but 10 years time into the future.

Visions were vanishing, seems like my time is up, someone else came to take that place, am i now in the present or the future. I told myself, its only the present, i woke up with a heavy heart, lost to know whether that is the past or present.

survey di dam

2008-10-14T09:24:00.000-07:00

Got this of huiee's blog, and decided to do it too!!

01 . What have you been doing recently ?
rotting, bumming, feeling sad

02 . Do you ever turn your cell phone off ?
untill it dies out on me, or i needa restart it.

03 . What happened at 10.00am today ?
sleeping like a fishball

04 . When did you last cry?
crying seems like last night, tearing would be a few hours back.

05 . Believe in fate / destiny ?
yea, both actually.

06 . What do you want in your life right now ?
I want her
A license
A GTR
Get into Uni
Get NS over and done with

07 . Do you carry an umbrella when it rains , or just put up your hood ?
seldom carry one unless i have a bad

08 . What's your favourite thing to have on your bed ?
me sleeping soundly

09 . What bottom are you wearing now ?
some basketball shorts

10 . What's the nicest text in your inbox say ?
her liking me? but it was probably a month ago? or 2 ?

11 . Do you tend to make a relationship complicated ?
not really, i try my best to keep it simple

12 . Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone ?
no

13 . What was the last movie you caught ?
give me a break, im lonely, no one watches movie with me.

14 . What are you proud of ?
erm, my O level ? LOL

15 . What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
It's from huiee. something abt office skirt

16 . What was the last song you sang out loud ?
love letter by gackt

17 . Do you have any nicknames ?
fishball,junjun, jx, mana sama is self proclaimed

18 . What does your last received text message say ?
Jon: (cant really state content, sensitive topic)

19 . What time did you go to bed last night ?
2.30am

20 . Are you currently happy ?
happy when i see her, sad when she goes out with him

21 . Who gives you best advice ?
im a guru, i get advice from myself

22 . Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can ?
NO, ITS HOLY MOLLY FAT

23 . Who did you talk on phone last night ?
wasnt even on the phone.

24 . Is anything bugging you right now ?
yea, him and her

25 . What / who was the last thing / person to make you laugh?
dont think i laughed recently, cant remember.

26 . Do you wear toe socks ?
no.

27 . Who was the last person you missed a call from ?
MLM company =.=

28 . Have you ever had your heartbroken ?
yeah, she could still heal me now. It's nt too late.

29 . What annoys you most in a person ?
arrogance

30 . Do you have a crush on anyone ?
dont think so

31 . Have you ever hone a cocaine ?
nope

32 . What is the colour of your room ?
white

33 . Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars ?
maybe, ill consider who. YES for a love rival definitely

34 . Do you believe in the saying of : Talk is cheap ?
yea i do

35 . Who was the last person to lie in your bed ?
mana sama aka me

36 . Who was the last person to hug you ?
her

37 . Did anyone see that last person you kissed ?
nope, doubt so

38 . Do you have a life ?
to a certain extent when i be positive

39 . Have you ever think someone died , when they really didn't die ?
nope, i dont assume things. i get my facts right.

40 . What is the reason behind your profile song ?
dont have one

41 . Who was the last person you saw in your dream ?
her

42 . Last time you smiled ?
today, must be some stupid joke that made me smile

43 . Have you changed this year ?
i got a bit sadder, trying to attain happiness.

44 . What are you listening right now ?
its silent, maybe the air ?

45 . Are you talking to someone when you doing this ?
nope

46 . Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
open

47 . Is there a quote you live by ?
expect the unexpected from me.

48 . Do you want someone you cannot have ?
yup, and its sad. really sad

49 . Have you ever played an instrument ?
yea. some chinese stuff. gosh

50 . What was the worst idea you've had in this week ?
getting myself killed

51 . What are you doing last night at 11pm ?
msn-ing

52 . Are you happy with your love life right now ?
not at all, i need my saviour aka her

53 . What song best describe you love life ?
last song by gackt, check out the lyrics in english

54 . Does the person know that you like him / her ?
yup

55 . Who always make you laugh ?
honestly, i dont have an answer

56 . Do you speak other language other then English ?
chinese, hokkien, cantonese

57 . Favourite website(S) ?
http://www.blog.j-rock4u.com/

58 . What's your middle name?
none

59 . What are you doing tomorrow ?
school + seeing her(bonus)

60 . What do you think you are like ?
probably someone who needs love all the time, or ill die real soon.

61 . Who will you choose to die with ?
her bah, its diff compared to other girls.

62 . Where have you been today ?
orhcard, dhoby, cine. yio chu kang

63 . What game do you play often ?
DOTA?

64 . Who are you missing right now ?
her

65 . If you have to choose between friendship & Love , who will you choose ?
this is hard =.=, ill choose love

66 . What are you doing right now ?
doing this survey, online, listening to gackt.

67 . Which primary school are you from ?
ACS primary

68 . Name 3 colour that you like .
black, yellow, red

69 . What emotion you like to show ?
i like showing happiness =.= believe me!!

70 . What is your life to you ?
i dream to be somewhat like yoshiki, but not so zai.

71 . If you have something troubling you , what will you do ?
get all my brothers to sit down and talk . will msg her also

72 . Who did you last chat in msn today ?
huiee bah

73 . Who do you admire most ?
daddy + mommy

74 . Which month are you born in ?
november!!

75 . How are you feeling right now ?
sad, im thinking of my future with her.

76 . What is the time now ?
12.44 am

77 . What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is ?
got it from huiee

78 . What colour did you use to dye hair ?
brown i think, it was really long ago

79 . Why are you doing this test ?
huiee did it, so decided to try it

80 . What do you do when you're moody ?
i cry, i dont smoke cos i promised her not to smoke.

81 . At which age you wish to get married ?
when the right one arrives

82 . Who is more important to you ?
her

83 . If today is the last day of your life , what will you do ?
call her up, tell her i really love her. perish silently wishing her to be happy

84 . Who is the person you trust the most ?
huiee

85 . Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain ?
ya, saw it a few times

86 . If you have a dream come true , what would it be ?
eternal happiness

87 . What is your goal for this year ?
to be more mature

88 . Do you believe in eternity love ?
for as long as one lives bah

89 . What feeling do you love most ?
happiness when she makes me happy with her smile

90 . Do you really think its Global Warming now ?
yup, it gets holy shit hot

91 . What feeling do you hate most ?
sadness

92 . Do you cherish every single friendship of yours ?
yup

93 . Do you believe in God ?
god as in ? which religion ? i noe we can change our fate

94 . Who cares for you most ?
her, parents , brothers

95 . What do you think is the most important in your life ?
making myself happy which seems hard

96 . What will you bring when you fight ?
i guess a rod, i love wacking with a rod

97 . What have you done regretted doing in your whole life ?
eh, lets not start. gets a bit painful

98 . What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you ?
ill compose a song, die and be remembered by many

99 . What if your boy/ girlfriend two-timed you ?
ill still cling on to her, cos im dont move on so fast.

100 . How do you feel now ?
sad, thinking of many things.

inspirational

2008-10-14T07:38:00.000-07:00

Jon said something which triggered my mind, "we are who we think we are" . I will not give you up, for i know you are the only one who have given me this feeling, its different and it shall be eternal =)

*school starts tml, smile smile!!*

a teardrop for each message

2008-10-11T09:05:00.000-07:00

the longest day filled with endless heartache brings to a night for many teardrops. Bidding you goodbye hurts so bad, i wished you were still you a few months back.

其實還愛你

life, fate, hatred, agony, torment and love

2008-10-05T03:26:00.000-07:00

just like my title of this post says. im thinking of all those, im feeling very down now, in fact ive cried at every instance where something makes me think of you. almost everywhere seems like a sad place, a place where we have gone tgt. I dont know how to live on my next few days, to escape is only temporary, to end my life is eternal, but is it worth it ?

Just hearing such a fact is happy yet sad, to be happy for u and sad for myself.

*bloodstains tainted on the wall*

just a broken hearted man

2008-09-29T18:47:00.001-07:00

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a girl...
Oohoohwoo
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world...
Hmmmm

and maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner...
Cos you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
[Repeat in background]

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.

*a meaningful song to me* can i not move ? will you come back to find me ?

hard not to think

2008-09-24T20:43:00.001-07:00

Once i could sleep so easily and happily with no worries, lieing on my bed and knocked out in 5 mins. Now life has took a change, when i lie on my bed, i think so much of you, i have to watch tv untill my eyes become teary red so that i can sleep. Sleeping is the thing i hate most these days.

im listening to crap

2008-09-24T10:16:00.001-07:00

i hope you can help me along the way, dont be so cruel. leave the details out, slit me to the throat. slay me

fate or made?

2008-09-23T01:14:00.000-07:00

im down, moodless, desolated and im cutting off all communication with the world temporary.

*if u cared, you might still care even now*

it sounds so childish, but i cant help but to think this way

sanity

2008-09-22T10:04:00.000-07:00

Out of my mind, nothing makes sense anymore. I want you back into my life. That's all im breathing for.

its either sooner or later

2008-09-19T11:22:00.000-07:00

He gave you heaven and the bare luxury you have ever wanted. I gave you nothing but a bare piece of bread.

bow down to temptation

2008-09-14T23:01:00.000-07:00

Was wondering when do we change partners? Regardless of whether is it bf/gf or wife/husband. It all seems like it's a matter of fact that people get tired of the old things and they want to change to something new. Its the force that pushes you to get something new, we(Rather I) call it temptation.

The thing that brings u back from changing partner would be emotions, guilt and memories. With all these you have acquired through the present partner you are with now, these things that make u happy will stop you from pursuing a new partner. So are those 3 factors good or bad in actual fact?

But whatever the conclusion maybe, it all boils down to our happiness isnt it. Have any of you sacrificed your happiness for someone ? Answer that question truthfully.

fucking awesome

2008-09-09T07:57:00.000-07:00

hey, so im gna let u guys feast your eyes on a fucking awesome performance. It's by x japan called art of life. Its just fucking good. Go watch it, four parts in total. And by the way, catch salmon dance mtv, that is just cute, the pufferfish beatboxes.

~cheer up and smile~

hanging out

2008-09-06T09:06:00.000-07:00

Here i am bloggginggg abt last night, its nt going to be detailed cause im dead tired. So it was a long day last night, i went out to play LAN at parklane there, then headed down to "drinking place" for martell session, went to MOS after drinking, Played 1 game of DOTA and headed back taking the first bus back home.

Reached home ard 7+. slept 4 hours b4 i woke up for brunch.

*i loved your sounds*

all the best

2008-09-04T06:39:00.000-07:00

you seem to find someone who can make you happy i believe, all the best.

i dont understand

2008-09-03T08:49:00.000-07:00

I just dont understand why do you have to do such things? Are u that desperate ? The choice is yours, do what you want. I will not bother.

passing clouds

2008-09-02T10:41:00.000-07:00

Each day pass by quickly and slowly. Quick if your occupied and slowly when your getting tormented in someways or another. I once said that in order to live a better life, one must be happy go lucky. In times of sadness or problems, we still have to move on with a positive mindset in mind.

I honestly do not have any idea why i am writing this post, it seems that years back seemed to be only months back. As long as i have known you, i have dissapointed you time and time again. I appologize for making you sad in any way. As everything closes gradually, years will move on just like months and in time to come, you will be on your own path in life.

I once thought that things could work out, i thought so hard, it was hard letting it go to think of it. We weren't even friends during a period of time. Seeing you makes me think of the past, both happy and sad. Being with you felt like the dramas i've always watched, those who have both sad and happy parts. I seem to be inside there somehow.

Ill close this post or ill keep blabbering on

I <3 you

jx became an emo monster

2008-09-02T09:53:00.000-07:00

I am currently feeling so down, like the world is going to end. I have no idea why? Germaine, i wanna send you off on friday =(

new skin!!

2008-09-01T08:49:00.001-07:00

hey everyone !!

Changed to a new skin after quite some time, remember to tag k ? hehe, im off to an early night after a tiring day today.

Believe in change, and change will occur.

could you tell me ?

2008-08-31T09:23:00.000-07:00

I read your blog, and i am wondering who the person you are talking about is. Could you tell me the answer before you leave in 5 days time. ( if you are actually reading this blog post.)

just drop me a note

thanks

believe

2008-08-30T10:29:00.000-07:00

Went out with sherman and edrick to comex fair for the 2nd time, cos sherman wanted to view his CPU and some desktops there. Then later went out to catch star wars at AMK HUB with them, haha. After the show ended was ard 11.40 pm, rotted in the arcade for ard 30 mins or less till edrick father came and fetch them all to serangoon gardens. I decided to walk back home, as there was no more public transport and i didnt want to cab back cos im rather broke.

Thus i began walking home, i began crying just as i had my first few steps on the way home. The reason i was crying was because i felt that if i persevered longer in certain parts of my life, it would be better for me, i thought of every negative and positive thing that could happen to me. The journey back home seemed really hard, almost impossible. As i began walking, i didnt look back, looking back would be encouraging but also de-motivational. I learnt that in life, if your thrown into a situation, you would jolly well have to complete it. And that was what i did to myself, i said" i had to walk home by hook or by crook" and here i am typing this blog post.

I came back 13 mins ago, thinking of love, reading the past blog that we brothers established almost more then a year ago. I thought of you, but your just a memory, a illusion, you're there but you are not seeing me, never will & never would.

Im not feeling very well, probably im tired. the first cut is indeed the deepest.

a date ? an appointment ? a promise ?

2008-08-28T09:25:00.000-07:00

I've been thinking about the word 约定. What does it really mean ? so many different meanings in different context, i get confused to even define the word thus explaining my title. Heard about my friend's problem abt relationship, and i felt that (execution) part of love would one day run out of surpirses, creativity and uniqueness. The only thing that can bond of you would truely be caring and concern for each other mutually in the simplest ways.

=)

family

2008-08-26T09:01:00.000-07:00

I was thinking of having my own family, to have maybe a son. He would be calling me daddy!! how cute right ? but okie, i dumped that thought back into space cause i felt that somethings should not be forced. Let nature take its course.

regret

2008-08-25T06:58:00.001-07:00

I know i am going to do regret about my actions in probably 11 or 12 days time ? When you are gone, i know i will miss you like before. But i stand strong to remain unmoved . Why ? Im too hurt to speak when i think about you.

sorry

2008-08-24T05:24:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry to let you wait for my reply, take care. Days go by so quickly, it'll all be over soon.

zooo!!! ROAR

2008-08-20T09:08:00.000-07:00

I NEED TO EXPRESS MY DEEEPEST HATED THOUGHT FOR THE DAY!! I NEVER CATCH THE NEW SHOWWW, FUCK IS THE WORD SERIOUSLY. okok, back to the zoo trip, photos all in huiee blog la, lazy to upload, anddddddddd it was raining quite heavily for a while, we trained for NAPFA in the zoo today, saw some animals acting weirdly and life was rather happy la. LALALA, im tired to blog la, time for a new day, dawnnn upon me light!! *shine shine*

whirlpool

2008-08-18T06:58:00.001-07:00

im feeling angry now. If someone asked me why i am angry, the reason i can give them would be im tired cos i went to swim like a madman just now. But is that the only reason ? my heart is aching, i dont know why. It hurts.

Sigh

moody ~~~

2008-08-17T19:20:00.000-07:00

i have been feeling so damn moody these days, i believe its the weather that is torturing me constantly. I shall go for my afternoon swim later, for now ill just watch camp rock ( disney movie =.= ) which is not very nice, but i'll still watch it for the sake of it.

deserted island, im living in an isolated land. TELL ME ABT IT!!

its all placed out

2008-08-16T10:44:00.000-07:00

i placed my thoughts all out today, just like how u spread peanut butter on a bread. And thus i resolved every thought that is/would make/making me sadddd. Thus i feel absolutely good now. And as for ervina, take careee lil ervie.

ill be back HOHO

peace

2008-06-13T07:13:00.000-07:00

these few days, i wake up thinking of you throughout the night, i cant sleep, i feel weak but life has got to carry on. i am lost, should i risk the chance of me being irritating or helpful ?

~these years and im still about you

~new blog again~

2008-06-12T08:04:00.001-07:00

I saw you from afar, you were chatty as usual, not a bad thing. I felt left out initially, but things got better. Seconds with you felt like pure happiness, i waved and bid you goodbye, i was in the shadow, you drifted away further from me.

i hope that every decision and step i make in life would all be part of a greater and better future.

~remember to take ur medicine, i got u non drowsy ones =)
~hope you get well soon