trying is not wrong, trying too hard but not making the mark is totally stupid. 

Listen to the wind and litter around you, take your leave, destroy your heart and remain silent as no one wants to hear anything from you.

*your a total outcast* 

arising energy

the prettiest girl looking into the pretty eyes

posted @ 2:38 AM

Thursday, October 23, 2008

leave and shut up

If u have no buisness to care, then fuck off. Dont make ppl stressed up over nothing. fucking idiots.

posted @ 9:53 AM

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

HAPPY, VERY HAPPY , SUPER HAPPY

I AM SUPER HAPPY NOW BECAUSE OF HUIEEE, SHE TOTALLY MADE MY DAY A HAPPY ONE  :D


*the day is soon*

posted @ 6:41 AM

Sunday, October 19, 2008

CUTE and ADORABLE!!

I am back, and this time. Im here to post one of huiee's picture, when she was young la. SHE LOOKS SO CUTEEEE, ITS LIKE I WANNA PINCH HER CHEEKS. HAHA. There you go, cutey pau picture.


*always cute*

posted @ 10:10 AM

contradicting

You were the one who induced warmth into my heart, you feel love. But you are also the one who took away the heartbeat and feelings from my heart.

posted @ 1:53 AM

Thursday, October 16, 2008

thoughts

I closed my eyes and thought of the future.

Everything felt like it was pure bliss and happiness, we were beside each other, doing nothing, just enjoying the company of each other. I looked into your eyes, those beautiful eyes im seeing now but 10 years time into the future.

Visions were vanishing, seems like my time is up, someone else came to take that place, am i now in the present or the future. I told myself, its only the present, i woke up with a heavy heart, lost to know whether that is the past or present.

posted @ 8:21 AM

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

survey di dam

Got this of huiee's blog, and decided to do it too!!

01 . What have you been doing recently ?
rotting, bumming, feeling sad

02 . Do you ever turn your cell phone off ?
untill it dies out on me, or i needa restart it.

03 . What happened at 10.00am today ?
sleeping like a fishball

04 . When did you last cry?
crying seems like last night, tearing would be a few hours back.

05 . Believe in fate / destiny ?
yea, both actually.

06 . What do you want in your life right now ?
I want her
A license
A GTR
Get into Uni
Get NS over and done with


07 . Do you carry an umbrella when it rains , or just put up your hood ?
seldom carry one unless i have a bad

08 . What's your favourite thing to have on your bed ?
me sleeping soundly

09 . What bottom are you wearing now ?
some basketball shorts

10 . What's the nicest text in your inbox say ?
her liking me? but it was probably a month ago? or 2 ?

11 . Do you tend to make a relationship complicated ?
not really, i try my best to keep it simple

12 . Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone ?
no

13 . What was the last movie you caught ?
give me a break, im lonely, no one watches movie with me.

14 . What are you proud of ?
erm, my O level ? LOL

15 . What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
It's from huiee. something abt office skirt

16 . What was the last song you sang out loud ?
love letter by gackt

17 . Do you have any nicknames ?
fishball,junjun, jx, mana sama is self proclaimed

18 . What does your last received text message say ?
Jon: (cant really state content, sensitive topic)

19 . What time did you go to bed last night ?
2.30am

20 . Are you currently happy ?
happy when i see her, sad when she goes out with him

21 . Who gives you best advice ?
im a guru, i get advice from myself

22 . Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can ?
NO, ITS HOLY MOLLY FAT

23 . Who did you talk on phone last night ?
wasnt even on the phone.

24 . Is anything bugging you right now ?
yea, him and her

25 . What / who was the last thing / person to make you laugh?
dont think i laughed recently, cant remember.

26 . Do you wear toe socks ?
no.

27 . Who was the last person you missed a call from ?
MLM company =.=

28 . Have you ever had your heartbroken ?
yeah, she could still heal me now. It's nt too late.

29 . What annoys you most in a person ?
arrogance

30 . Do you have a crush on anyone ?
dont think so

31 . Have you ever hone a cocaine ?
nope

32 . What is the colour of your room ?
white

33 . Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars ?
maybe, ill consider who. YES for a love rival definitely

34 . Do you believe in the saying of : Talk is cheap ?
yea i do

35 . Who was the last person to lie in your bed ?
mana sama aka me

36 . Who was the last person to hug you ?
her

37 . Did anyone see that last person you kissed ?
nope, doubt so

38 . Do you have a life ?
to a certain extent when i be positive

39 . Have you ever think someone died , when they really didn't die ?
nope, i dont assume things. i get my facts right.

40 . What is the reason behind your profile song ?
dont have one

41 . Who was the last person you saw in your dream ?
her

42 . Last time you smiled ?
today, must be some stupid joke that made me smile

43 . Have you changed this year ?
i got a bit sadder, trying to attain happiness.

44 . What are you listening right now ?
its silent, maybe the air ?

45 . Are you talking to someone when you doing this ?
nope

46 . Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
open

47 . Is there a quote you live by ?
expect the unexpected from me.

48 . Do you want someone you cannot have ?
yup, and its sad. really sad

49 . Have you ever played an instrument ?
yea. some chinese stuff. gosh

50 . What was the worst idea you've had in this week ?
getting myself killed

51 . What are you doing last night at 11pm ?
msn-ing

52 . Are you happy with your love life right now ?
not at all, i need my saviour aka her

53 . What song best describe you love life ?
last song by gackt, check out the lyrics in english

54 . Does the person know that you like him / her ?
yup

55 . Who always make you laugh ?
honestly, i dont have an answer

56 . Do you speak other language other then English ?
chinese, hokkien, cantonese

57 . Favourite website(S) ?
http://www.blog.j-rock4u.com/

58 . What's your middle name?
none

59 . What are you doing tomorrow ?
school + seeing her(bonus)

60 . What do you think you are like ?
probably someone who needs love all the time, or ill die real soon.

61 . Who will you choose to die with ?
her bah, its diff compared to other girls.

62 . Where have you been today ?
orhcard, dhoby, cine. yio chu kang

63 . What game do you play often ?
DOTA?

64 . Who are you missing right now ?
her

65 . If you have to choose between friendship & Love , who will you choose ?
this is hard =.=, ill choose love

66 . What are you doing right now ?
doing this survey, online, listening to gackt.

67 . Which primary school are you from ?
ACS primary

68 . Name 3 colour that you like .
black, yellow, red

69 . What emotion you like to show ?
i like showing happiness =.= believe me!!

70 . What is your life to you ?
i dream to be somewhat like yoshiki, but not so zai.

71 . If you have something troubling you , what will you do ?
get all my brothers to sit down and talk . will msg her also

72 . Who did you last chat in msn today ?
huiee bah

73 . Who do you admire most ?
daddy + mommy

74 . Which month are you born in ?
november!!

75 . How are you feeling right now ?
sad, im thinking of my future with her.

76 . What is the time now ?
12.44 am

77 . What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is ?
got it from huiee

78 . What colour did you use to dye hair ?
brown i think, it was really long ago

79 . Why are you doing this test ?
huiee did it, so decided to try it

80 . What do you do when you're moody ?
i cry, i dont smoke cos i promised her not to smoke.

81 . At which age you wish to get married ?
when the right one arrives

82 . Who is more important to you ?
her

83 . If today is the last day of your life , what will you do ?
call her up, tell her i really love her. perish silently wishing her to be happy

84 . Who is the person you trust the most ?
huiee

85 . Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain ?
ya, saw it a few times

86 . If you have a dream come true , what would it be ?
eternal happiness

87 . What is your goal for this year ?
to be more mature

88 . Do you believe in eternity love ?
for as long as one lives bah

89 . What feeling do you love most ?
happiness when she makes me happy with her smile

90 . Do you really think its Global Warming now ?
yup, it gets holy shit hot

91 . What feeling do you hate most ?
sadness

92 . Do you cherish every single friendship of yours ?
yup

93 . Do you believe in God ?
god as in ? which religion ? i noe we can change our fate

94 . Who cares for you most ?
her, parents , brothers

95 . What do you think is the most important in your life ?
making myself happy which seems hard

96 . What will you bring when you fight ?
i guess a rod, i love wacking with a rod

97 . What have you done regretted doing in your whole life ?
eh, lets not start. gets a bit painful

98 . What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you ?
ill compose a song, die and be remembered by many

99 . What if your boy/ girlfriend two-timed you ?
ill still cling on to her, cos im dont move on so fast.

100 . How do you feel now ?
sad, thinking of many things.

posted @ 9:24 AM

inspirational

Jon said something which triggered my mind, "we are who we think we are" . I will not give you up, for i know you are the only one who have given me this feeling, its different and it shall be eternal =)


*school starts tml, smile smile!!*

posted @ 7:38 AM

Saturday, October 11, 2008

a teardrop for each message

the longest day filled with endless heartache brings to a night for many teardrops. Bidding you goodbye hurts so bad, i wished you were still you a few months back.


其實還愛你

posted @ 9:05 AM

Sunday, October 5, 2008

life, fate, hatred, agony, torment and love

just like my title of this post says. im thinking of all those, im feeling very down now, in fact ive cried at every instance where something makes me think of you. almost everywhere seems like a sad place, a place where we have gone tgt. I dont know how to live on my next few days, to escape is only temporary, to end my life is eternal, but is it worth it ?

Just hearing such a fact is happy yet sad, to be happy for u and sad for myself.

*bloodstains tainted on the wall*

posted @ 3:26 AM